Phew! What a day! I’m exhausted but it has been tons of fun. Here it is in pictures.
Blackberry Crumb Pie
1 Pie Crust, refrigerated or from scratch
For the Filling:
3 cups fresh or frozen blackberries
¼ – ½ cup sugar
¾ teaspoons cinnamon
For the Crumble Topping
2/3 cup sugar
1 ½ cups flour
12 tablespoons butter
For the Filling:
Toss the berries with the sugar and the cinnamon.
For the Crumble Topping:
Whisk together the flour and the sugar.
Cut in the butter with a pastry cutter or fork until mixture is crumbly.
Press the pie crust into a pie dish.
Pour in the berry filling.
Cover with the crumble topping.
Bake at 400° for 1 hour (The recipe only called for 35 minutes but it just wasn’t done)
Book club was neat. I figured out it was our 30th book! Not too shabby. We read Rebecca by Daphne DuMarier and we all enjoyed it immensely. While we were talking about the book I had my light fixture and art installed in my room. I kind of love it!
Then I met my trainer for a quick session and went to 2 Wallgreens to get an awesome collage poster done for my lesson. I’m teaching about friendship and so I made a poster of my friends. Then I came home and had another mini bookclub session with my friend Melissa who couldn’t come earlier but wanted to talk about the book. So fun!
Next, I had to work on my lesson for a bit and do the program for tomorrow’s relief society. Then it was time to get my hair cut and colored by my friend Rachel. It’s very similar to what I always get but I like it.
Then Taylor and Becca came over and we did another of our cooking lessons. This time I taught them how to make chili and cornbread. Everything turned out great especially the chili and it was so much fun to teach them and gab together. They are such fun friends.
1 yellow onion diced
3 red, orange, yellow peppers diced
2 jalapenos seeded, pulp removed, finely diced (less if you don’t want it to be spicy)
1 tbsp olive oil
1 lb ground beef
3 cans diced tomatoes
1 small can of tomato paste
2 tbsp chili powder
1 tsp smashed garlic
1/2 tsp cumin
1 tbsp paprika
1/2 tsp nutmeg
2 tbsp honey
4 cups chicken broth
2 cans black beans (or any kind of beans)
Heat olive oil add diced onion, garlic, peppers. Sweat vegetables until clear. Add ground beef until heated through. Add spices. Add tomatoes, tomato paste, chicken broth, black beans, add honey to taste. Come to a boil and then simmer and it will get thicker. Top with cilantro, green onion, greek yogurt etc. Serve with cornbread.
So is that not a super full day? Tomorrow I have to teach my lesson and pick my Dad up from the airport and then its back to work. Busy, busy, busy but happy. Life is good. Wish me luck on my lesson. A little nervous about it because its a little unorthodox but in a good way. Right now I’m too tired to give it much thought. What fun day!
So the day came and I have spent my first night in my new house. I am so sore and I took a 2 hour nap today which is really unusual for me. What a 24 hours I’ve had!
It all started on Friday with finishing up the packing. My friends Rachel and Adry came over with my sister Anna and we got the kitchen and final clothes boxed up. It was more work than I would have expected and you wouldn’t believe how much stuff I have! Kind of shocking! I guess when you think about it I have all the stuff for a home and that adds up.
Exhausted I went to bed Friday kind of dreading the next day and the big move. I was in a lot of pain and so worn out but I was determined to not show it at all. I put on a smile and got the U-haul truck. Anna and I started loading and then one person showed and then another, and one more. Before you know it there were a dozen or so people!
To say I was overwhelmed would be an understatement. I was truly touched that so many people love me enough to help me move (something I have come to understand is the greatest example of friendship). There were even 3 or 4 people that I didn’t even know from my old ward and friends of friends. I figure you have to be an extra special person to help someone you don’t know move!
With so many people we finished the loading and unloading in like 2 hours! I was blown away. I wish I had taken photos of everyone who came but it was just too nuts. We got home in enough time for my sister, cousin and I to start unpacking. Believe it or not today I finished all the kitchen, most of the living room, and a lot of clothes. When I saw all those boxes I never thought they’d be emptied as fast as they have been.
Take a look at all the boxes!
Last night I wearily laid down in my house. I felt overwhelmed. Overwhelmed by all the love showed me. Overwhelmed by the months of work and anxiety. Months of frustration, tears and excitement. It will certainly go down as a landmark occasion of my life and it felt SO good! I feel blessed and I LOVE MY HOUSE! It was super hard and I’m not going to claim to have handled everything in the best way but I did what I could and am grateful for the learning experience. It was a huge test and I think me and my friends have passed. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Today I did the walk through inspection of my house. We went from room to room with blue tape and marked any dings, nicks or spots. No major problems just little things here and there. So basically everything is ready for closing except for the FHA renewal which everything hinges on. The entire complex has to be approved and I guess my builder had to overnight them additional information on Friday.
Once the FHA case # is posted online it can take 48 to 72 hours for the closing to get done. The builder is hoping to hear back from FHA by Thursday or Friday. This means I probably won’t have a move in this Saturday like I was hoping but we will see. Maybe I will get lucky and things will move right along? (Goodness knows I could use a little luck and especially my poor roommate. What a month she has had!). It took them 10 days to give us an initial response so hopefully the correction (they had listed 107 units instead of 108) won’t take that long. We’ll see!
Nothing we can do but just wait and go crazy (patience has never been my strength)…Sigh
I did some video of my house so that my family and friends could see what it looks like. I think it is very pretty! I know it will all be worth it but I can tell you this- I am not moving for a LONG time!!!!!
Top Floor 1
Top Floor 2
Please everyone say a prayer that FHA will come through and I will be able to close soon. Thank you! I’m so excited for my new house. I think the colors and the choices turned out very nicely. I’m really proud of how it turned out.
I am relaxing tonight after a long week. Work on my house has been clipping along and it looks like I can do the walk through on Monday! Still not sure on closing because of an FHA approval that is ‘in process’ (that is all the government will tell us. Sigh!). The house looks great and I’m very happy with it.
It makes me happy as well that my tenants are happy with it and “LOVE it” (from their text caps and all). They certainly have been through a lot waiting for this house right along with me and I’ve been so grateful for their patience and kindness. I definitely chose the right people to share a home with!
Strangely the building (and waiting) of my house was actually the happy part of the week. It was a very intense week at work with end of the month and end of the year responsibilities. I’m still packing up my house and had a full schedule.
The real mess started with my soon to be roommate staying up at my Dad’s rental while my house is being finished. I felt bad but the situation got worse with a break in, her laptop getting stolen and a missing person’s case forcing the police back up to the house. Then to make matters worse I was still showing the house to potential tenants. On Wednesday someone looked at the house and LOVED it. They said ‘we want to sign the contract and get in asap’.
In fact, they wanted to get in the house on Saturday (tomorrow), giving me only 3 days to get the house cleaned, carpet cleaned, move my Dad’s stuff, get it ready to go. Not to mention getting my roommate moved ( I feel so bad about that! The woman deserves Sainthood for all she’s been through).
At first I said no way but then the money convinced me to give it a try. (Stupid!). Me and the manager worked very hard to get everything ready but with the snow storm it became clear yesterday that it wasn’t going to happen. We didn’t want to endanger the cleaners or make things unsafe.
I tried to call, text and email them about the delay and didn’t hear back from them so we kept on working. Stacia, the manager, worked after getting a root canal done that morning! Then finally at the end of the day (while I still got my 8 hours in for my regular job and missed my swim!) they sent me a text saying they got ‘cold feet because of the storm’. Sigh…
It was super frustrating. I just wish they had expressed some concerns to me sooner or at least been more up front with me yesterday so we hadn’t killed ourselves working on such a tight deadline. I’m exhausted!
Anyway, it’s just as well. What made me think of this is I was talking to someone today and they said
‘I’m more of a Spartan when handling such things’
‘Why waste energy and anxiety over things you have no control over?’
This made me feel a little sad because I hate being weak. Sometimes it feels like everyone else is tougher, stronger, braver, better than me and I’m a big wimp.
Here’s the thing I realized- Maybe I am the Spartan because I do get through it all and channel anxiety in the best way I know how? I take the burden of my fears and worry and still complete the goals in my life. Doesn’t that in a way make me twice as tough?
Here’s the second thing- I also do it for the most part completely alone. Yes, I have family and friends who love and support me (thank you!) but as far as the day to day financial, work, social decisions of my life I take all the pressure and have to make all the decisions.
I know women who have made almost no decisions independently of a spouse or parent in their life, ever. I think it can be hard for these types of people to understand the pressure, anxiety and fear that can go into each choice.
If I have a fear that everything will go wrong and an anxiety for the future maybe it is because I’ve fallen flat on my face enough in life to know how much it sucks? I think in a way it is a protective instinct. To protect me from the pain I try to prepare for it. I also feel like once I had my first panic attack my brain changed and I just don’t absorb things like I used to. I fear going through that again because it was awful.
Just look at this house- it is 100% all me. I made every choice as far as colors, size, dimensions, income property, tenants, everything. Getting the loan, picking the location, going through closing will be only me. Again, that is a lot of pressure. If it fails I am the one that is blamed. It is the same way with my work- all 3 of my jobs. Yes, I have associates and support but in the end it is me alone in my apartment working. No substitutes, no excuses.
And I do it all with a diagnosed anxiety disorder…maybe I’m not so weak?
Here’s the third thing- Asking the question ‘why worry about things you can’t control?’ is sort of redundant for anxiety sufferers because
I can’t control my anxiety!
Yes, I can channel it; and yes, I can learn to react to it more effectively but at a certain point it is there and just like any other illness you have, and you must work with your body to respond in a healthy way.
This is so hard to explain to someone who hasn’t experienced that out of control feeling but believe me it is real. I actually feel I have handled things pretty well considering. Believe me if I had given into every moment of anxiety I felt I would have been way more of a mess!
So there you go world- Just think about it when you use that CONTROL word because what is in my control as far as anxiety may be just as challenging as my control over FHA approvals or anything else.
CONTROL (Maybe that’s why I like blogging I can control it and it is all mine!)
What do you all think about control and dealing with pressure? I’d be especially curious to hear from my single friends that have to do a lion-share of the decision making and how they deal with that? Especially singles who have purchased homes!
So they finally came! The countertops were installed yesterday. So excited! I think the townhouse looks great. The tenants are looking at the basement apartment today and I think they will love it. It’s a small apartment but very classy. I think they will love it and they’ve been so great to work with that I’m looking forward to the next year!
I can’t wait to move and get in my house. One step closer with the countertops! Wahoo! Tomorrow I am going to my new ward so that should be exciting. It’s been a hard process since I started in August and I am so ready for it all to be over and done.
Now it is just the final steps, appliance installs, fixtures, carpet etc. Then there will the loans and FHA to finish. Can’t wait!