So this week I turned 38. That means I’m almost 40. Wow! At least I’m not actually 40 but it’s coming! I can feel it!
I am not one to moan and groan about my age but it does kind of shock me that almost 40 has come so fast. Where did the time go? 2018 marked 20 years since I finished high school. That makes sense because that feels like another millennia ago. But other stuff like the end of my mission in 2005 seems like it just happened. Even something like moving into my home has somehow ballooned into 6 years! Mind blown.
Luckily I can’t feel to badly about turning 38 because I’ve had such an amazing year. Currently I am busy covering the Sundance Film Festival and you can find my reviews on rottentomatoes.com! My podcasts/channels are both doing well and I’m super proud of them and things are going well with my job. So life is great. I am very blessed.
So I’m not really sad about turning almost 40 but it is a little sobering. I certainly thought I would be married and have a family at this point but it just hasn’t been in the cards for me. (If you know anyone who might be interested please let me know 😉 ). It makes me a little sad to think about that but there’s nothing I can do about it so oh well.
The other day I was thinking about the people in my life who didn’t get to be almost 40 (my cousins Lisa, Riley, Raquel RIP). A family and spouse may not happen (I’m aware it could happen but it might not) but think about the many experiences I do get to have which they did not? It reminds me to be grateful for the gift of life and another year on this planet. Even in the bad times I am growing and changing into the person God wants me to be. He is behind all the lessons of my life, and I’m confident He has something special in store for the almost 40 version of me.
If January is any test 2019 is shaping up to be a very memorable year and I’m ready for it! I’m a little overwhelmed and wish I had more time but I’m as ready as I can be. Fortunately, I have tons of support both in real life and online for which I am truly grateful.
So to almost 40: Bring it on!
Rachel's Musings 
Thirty-eight has been in my rear-view mirror for 25 years, now. That’s when I decided to take a card out of Jack Benny’s deck and never be older than 39, for the rest of my life. Chronic illness and permanent disability are not how I wanted to spend that life, but it helps when I remember that my spirit was born who knows how many eons ago, and yet that part of me doesn’t feel the least bit sick or old.
Here’s to the first day of the rest of your life! 🙂
Thanks for all your support
I’m glad you’re feeling good about life right now! I’m still a little way off 38 but I sometimes feel alarmed at how much time has passed since various milestones – there are things I’d hoped I would do by now that I haven’t yet, but my life is certainly better than it has been in the past and I’m looking forward to the future.
Thanks. Nice to hear your experience. I think we all feel that way about certain aspects of life. At least I dont know anyone that gets all their dreams to come true. Lol