So the last day of my trip has come and gone.  It was a fabulous day but the entry will probably be a little shorter because it was pretty simple.

Today was all about relaxation and inspiration

Started out with room service.  I’ve only had room service one other time on my cruise (not as expensive as you think $11 plus tip)

Then I watched General Conference in my room.  In April I discovered Conference twitter groups and I love it.  I find I learn more because I’m involving more senses.  Plus I make new friends and get more followers (like 35 new one’s today!).

I was so inspired by every talk.  To me a lot on staying strong no matter what.  A lot about loyalty and Christlike service.  Of course, with the new announcement yesterday there was a lot about missionary work which I love.  I am going to try and be bolder with my testimony.

My favorite talk from morning conference was Elder Holland’s talk.  Elder Hollands teaches the scriptures in such a personal way.  I felt like I was there with the early apostles.  Powerfully Elder Holland asked the question to each of us asked Peter “Do you love me?”.   If we do than we need to serve Him and feed His sheep.   Gosh I just can’t do it justice.  I honestly think it was a masterpiece.  I don’t know how you don’t feel something when He testifies of the Gospel.  I’ve listened to 3 times today and still blown away Just listen:

I know I want to be a better, more faithfully sensitive saint.   I want to serve in any way I can.  No half-hearted devotion for me.  No complete returning to my normal life after this weekend.  Powerful experience may only subtlety change you but they do change.

President Eyring’s talk also inspried me.  Sometimes I feel like aiming high is aiming for the impossible.  It has given me encouragement.  Just this week I did a seemingly impossible thing for work and look, I got through it.  His talk also reminded me that sometimes what we think would be good for our career or life may not be what God has in store.  Powerful.

Then we got to the break and I had to get some lunch.  Problem is most everything is closed on Sundays so I walked around until I found a large sports bar famous for subs and pizza I decided to give it a try.  Glad I did.  Delicious! It was called Maxwells Deli

After lunch got back for 2nd session (I’m seriously sore from all this city walking! Such a wimp!).  2nd session was also wonderful but the highlight for me was Elder Bednar and President Monson.

Elder Bednar spoke about the importance of loyalty to the church and not just testimony but true conversion.  It is one I will have to reread over and over again because it was so deep with content and doctrine.  Profound.   Again it made me want to be more bold in my testimony and to make sure I am spiritually ready for any challenges.

I thought Elder Bednar’s distinction between a testimony and conversion was profound. “Conversion is an enlarging of the ungirding base of testimony” “Conversion is an offering of self, love, and loyalty.  We give to God in gratitude for the gift of testimony”.  But why should I quote Elder Bednar when you can listen to the address:

President Monson was inspirational of course and told a lot of new stories.  Each story was about how the Lord will use you to answer promptings.  He also reiterated President Uchtdorf’s thoughts about not losing God in the details of life.  It’s so comforting to hear the words of a prophet and to know that we have a prophet to lead and guide my life.  I have a testimony that President Monson is the prophet of our age.

After conference I was sad (the spiritual feeding was so wonderful.  I wish I could have it every day!).

Anyway, I went up to the pool to relax and unwind, read

Once I was seriously unwound I had no more energy.  I called a few friends and ate some food from the hotel.  Then I watched some special TV

So there you go Friday I ate miraculously, Saturday I felt tons of love from my family, Sunday I prayed, contemplated and listened to the prophet.

I know I will be a better person after this weekend.  I’m not saying I will never have an anxiety attack again but every year I’m getting more skills and learning how to deal.  Every year I’m growing stronger in my testimony and more passionate in my faith.  It is my everything.  You could take away my swimming, singing, even my family as painful as that would be and it would be nothing to taking away my faith.

I have never wavered in my faith despite the trials that I have gone through.  I Know it is true and it is my life.  I know Jesus is the Christ.  That the Book of Mormon is true.  I know covenants are real if we chose to keep them they will give us power now and later.

The work of the gospel is progressing.  We are going to have thousands of new missionaries.  I wouldn’t be surprised if triple the sister missionaries go out.  That means we will also have thousands of endowed individuals who will be able to do work for their family. Everything is moving up mountains as President Eyring would say.  We have to be ready to follow.  We have to be strong.  We have to support each other and most important we have to be loyal, honest and examples of integrity

I’m a Mormon. I know it.  I live it.  I love it.

Ok.  I’m super tired.  What a relaxing wonderful weekend.  I feel inspired.  I know who I am.  I know that I wasn’t listening to the what God wanted when I fought Him on the Slam the Dam.  I know that Heavenly Father helped me through the anxiety attack and helped me make the right choice.  I know He loves me and am grateful He allowed me to have this wonderful weekend.  He knows our needs. He really cares.

I feel renewed, at peace and energized.  (Remind me of this moment when things get rough)

Thanks to all my friends for putting up with my constant photos and ups and downs.  I’m trying really hard to do what is right and to be happy, treat everyone right.  I hope you all know that when you are down or happy I am here for you night or day.  Seriously 2 in the morning call me and I’ll be there.

On to regular week.  I’m going to be watching for ways to fill my daily life with pieces of this magical weekend.  Goodnight 🙂